For the past few days, I've been a bit anxious about school. I just entered the iMPA program. It stands for the "integrated Masters in Professional Accounting" program. And it's the #1 accounting program in the nation. I'm now a part of that. I have to live up to that reputation. No pressure. I applied to this program on somewhat of a whim. I didn't know which direction to take in my business career, so I tried applying to the program. There's no way applying would hurt me. My thoughts were, "God, I'm going to apply. If I get in, then I'll give thanks. If I don't give in, then please help me to still give thanks." Fortunately, I got in. But I still don't know what I'm doing. Trust me. I feel like a chicken with its head cut off. I kind of have a passion for some parts of business. But at the same time, I enjoy the most random things. For example, I enjoy jazz, skiing, photography, etc. I have yet to find someone who enjoys the same exact things that I do. Before I headed to my orientation, I didn't have any assurance of anything. So I prayed. It was one of the shortest prayers. "Help me trust you." Consulting always caught my interest. To simply explain it, consulting is where a client asks for your help and you solve it. It can be any kind of problem: restaurants, banks, car dealerships, software companies, etc. Basically, you need to know a bit of everything because you're dealing with a bit of everything. You need to be a Ditto (I can't believe I just made a Pokemon reference... Don't judge me).
Consultants need to know a lot of stuff, and they need to be unique problem solvers. In other words, you can't be a normal person. You need to think differently and present solutions that no one else can think of. Anyway, long story short, I felt a passion and interest in this field during my orientation. It was a strange feeling. But I felt some sort of assurance. I can't seem to find anyone that does anything like me. I want to show and advise others that you can do business in a righteous, Godly way and still become successful for Christ. And for those of you who feel stressed and lost. Don't worry. I'm still just as lost as before.The only thing different is that I know that my God is bigger than my problem. The problem is still there, but I'm not stressed anymore. I'm joyful.
"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." - 1 Peter 5:7
It was a long day today. Woke up at 7AM to go hiking and shopped all afternoon. I'd say that today was very adventurous, and I learned a something about myself.
First, the hiking trail was... okay. Let's just say that I won't be going back again. If you like hiking in the forest and not reaching the top of a majestic cliff to see the wonderful view, then don't go here. In my personal experience, I hiked for 1.5 hours and ended up on a highway. Afterwards, we had to get picked up because we couldn't walk on the highway back to our car. We were about 4 miles away from where we started.
Long story short, we were walking the wrong direction. The group wanted to go back, and me and my 2 friends wanted to keep going. Big mistake. But we found a cool painting. Sort of.
And then we ended up climbing onto the highway...
Anyway, I learned something about myself. I've been praying to be an accountable, encouraging friend. But recently, I've found myself doing the opposite. I pray that Christ would change me so that I can be there for others.
These past three days have been a crazy journey, but it felt like a week long. I volunteered at a youth retreat in Austin. More specifically, I was invited to play keyboard in a praise band called "Awakening". I didn't have any other obligations except for worshiping at the evening sessions. It was a great experience to lead worship and relax. But I'll be honest, I learned just as much, if not more, at this retreat. Even though I wasn't a youth kid (I got mistaken as one many times), I was challenged to re-evaluate myself and realign my relationship with Christ.
Leading worship is one of the most difficult things to do. Yes, you have to be talented at playing instruments and whatnot. But that wasn't the difficult thing. Leading worship is a spiritual battle within yourself. There are so many things that can distract you from worshiping God.
Thoughts creep into my head: Does the audience seem into it? Am I playing the right chords? Does this sound cool? Am I singing in tune?
While you're thinking all these things, you forget about the words that are coming out of your mouth. Sure, you're singing the words. But that's it. In my case, I focused on "leading" worship. I didn't focus on worshiping God myself. Ironically, you fail at leading worship by focusing on leading worship. You lead worship by worshiping. The first night, our entire "Awakening" team came to realize this. We failed at worshiping because we were so concerned about leading. Honestly, God doesn't need us to have people worship Him. He chose to use us.
"God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in the Spirit and in truth.” - John 4:24
So I came to understand how important and challenging it is to lead worship. The spiritual battle within yourself is not a joke. It's Satan's best chance to ruin God's people from giving Him the glory He deserves. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- There's one more thing I learned. It's a simple truth, but it became dull to me. Sometimes you need a reminder (for me, it's all the time). Religion tells you to DO. Christ tells you it's already DONE. We've been given everything. All you have to do is believe in Christ. Like Judah Smith mentioned, "Your position in Christ dictates how you walk your life. But your walk in life will NEVER dictate/change your position in Christ."
If you haven't already heard, there are some terrible things going on in the Middle East. Basically, all hell has broken lose. Literally. I can't imagine what trauma people are facing. There are bombings, airstrikes, gun shots, rubble, and blood everywhere. It's quite the opposite of what we see in America. And this is nothing new. There has been conflict going on in that part of the world for quite some time. But there's a whole new dimension of terror. ISIS. If you aren't familiar with this group, then you should just google it. But let me give you a quick example of what they've done recently. They've brought Christian persecution to a whole new level. Christian families in Mosul, Iraq are being held at gun point to denounce Christ. Basically these families are given two choices: denounce Christ or die. If they do not denounce Christ, husbands get to see their wives raped in front of them. Parents get to see their children beheaded. And I am not exaggerating any of this. If you aren't convinced, check this article out. But I must warn you, these images are very, very graphic. Terrible actions of ISIS. I cannot say that I would not denounce Christ in this situation. The thought is unbearable, and I cringe at the thought of my brothers and sisters in Christ who are literally dying for Christ. I pray that our Father will hear the cries of His people and respond. I pray that He would give them perseverance, grace, peace, and comfort.
So I finally finished summer school, and it taught me a lot about myself. Honestly, I learned nothing more about our government. But I did somehow grow in a spiritual sense.
As I was taking this online government course, I complained. A lot. I can get pretty arrogant and prideful. The entire time, I complained about how I'm overqualified to be taking this course, how useless this course will be in my life, and how much "busy work" I have. Some of the things I thought may have been true. And sure, I may have been too good for this basic course. But I came to realize one main point. If you can't do the little things, then you don't deserve to handle the bigger things. I came across two passages that convicted me to re-evaluate how I was approaching this summer course.
"Be joyful always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." - 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
"So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God." - 1 Corinthians 10:31
These verses are simple. There is no way you can misinterpret these verses. It's clear, simple, and to the point. And I was stubborn and ignored it during my summer session. I wasn't joyful about taking my course. I didn't glorify God by complaining about how this course is boring, tedious, and a waste of time. If I can't do the little things right, then why would God even bother giving me a bigger, greater task? Sometimes we tell ourselves that we'll be serious when a serious task is at hand. But do you really know that for sure? I'm guilty of thinking in this way. I place my pride in myself, thinking that I can accomplish great things if the challenges come. And of course, that's something I need to pray about and fix. I want to boast and remind myself of my weaknesses, so that I cannot take the credit in anything that is accomplished.
"But he gives us more grace. That is why Scripture says: 'God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.'" - James 4:6
